HIDING UNDER HIS WING
Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me under the shadow of your wings, Psalm 17:8
Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, O LORD Almighty, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you. Psalm 84: 3, 4
Most single moms spend their days in a “survival” “get it done” mode, so a phrase like, “hiding under the shadow of His wing,” may seem foreign, and may even be an unrealistic concept. Just what does it mean anyway?
When my daughter was little, at bedtime, we would lie next to each other, and while she dosed off, I would often remain next to her to pray a little more, or just to love her, I enjoyed her scent, feeling her breathe. It was in those moments, I was providing her a safe place, a hiding place under the shadow of my wing, praying, hoping, believing she would always know she was safe and secure. My love was wrapping her, securing her in the knowledge that she was a beloved daughter, without realizing it, I was mirroring life in the spirit.
Sometimes, on the long hard days, Holy Spirit will lead me to recall those nights years ago with my daughter, as He reveals to me how the longing of His own heart, to show me His nearness, give me His love and provide safety for me. As I remember those fond and precious moments with her, He tenderly, pulls me close to His heart, allowing me to experience the joy of pausing just “to be” with Him; even if it is at the end of the day.
And as I lay there and feel Him we chat, I cry a little, He forgives, maybe I sing, and I dose off with the knowledge that “He remains,” praying over me, enjoying the fragrance of my prayers, and of our conversation: I find I am hiding under His wing.
He stays…on the “night watch” refreshing me as I sleep and just as I believed for my daughter, He reassures me of my identity in Him and of His unfailing love.
My daughter is not little anymore, and well, cuddle times are rare but unfortunately, long, hard tough days still happen; days when I’ve simply muddled through methodically and systematically in “survival mode” but when I stop and consider; I can feel His love surrounding me I am confident He is strengthening me with might and encouraging me with love. Indeed, He hides me and once again, my ears are opened and I hear Him gently whisper: “I have hidden you under the shadow of my wing; I am your source, I AM your True source. Tomorrow is a new day; there are no mistakes in it. (And even if I do make a mistake, which “unmistakably” I will) smile, I get to hide again for He makes all things new.
Perhaps you can recall precious moments with your own child(ren) those moments when the day pauses, no rushing, no guilt, or pressure, no questions: Did I do it right? a moment when you’re simply abiding together.
My prayer for you today, my friend, is that as you recall those moments you will know that your love for your child is mirroring the heart of God’s love over you. and that His Spirit will remind you of how He wraps you His name and lavishes His love upon you; whispering to you: “remember I am your refuge your hiding place and you belong“.
May you have many moments “hiding under His wing” celebrating His goodness and faithfulness. May you find your identity, as a most beloved daughter. Under the shadow of His wing, may you know His heart and thoughts towards you; He is good all the time. May you hear His heartbeat as He redeems all things, everything mistake, all of them. Because of His great love, we don’t have to do life on our own or in our own strength. The Promise Keeper keeps you under the shadow of His wing.
Written By: Selenia Vera
Author of “Go Quickly” and founder of Asher’s Table